I hope this post survives when i'm older

It's been a fat 4 years since I've made my first post. I was 14 at the time. I am 17 now and have changed some. I'm not into anime anymore really among other things. But I feel like I really haven't changed that much. I still feel insecure and unconfident in the way I act and the things I want to pursure in life. Alot of the times i feel as though I've wasted my teenage years being this shy turtle who is afraid to change. It hurts me inside knowing that I honestly think I never really lived/experienced a real teenage life. I've never dated, never kissed anyone, barely made any new friends. But the ugly truth about how I feel is that deep down I think it's the things I love that caused me to have this shift in my personality; going from someone who litterally never cared about what people though tof her to now that's my only thoughts in school. I joined the high school marching band and I honestly think that was the best and absolute worst descision in my high school life. I've simultanious felt the lowest and highest points being in it. I lost all of my confidence in freshman year to regaining my strength end of sophomore year to not being able to remember why I wanted that strength back junior year. I can't even put into words what I'm feeling right now in this time of my life, and I'm honest;y starting to think I'm more suicidal and depressed than I want to admit. I'll be driving down the highway and just think to myself how easy it would be to just swerve off the road and crash and die. I'd be so easy, all my problems would just go away.. But I can't halp think about the people I'd leave behind, but also I can't help but think about the people I'd never have to see again.

Hi!

Why hello there!

Hello people of the internet! My name is Alex. I really love to read manga and watch various animes. One of my favorites would be Attack on Titan, so that is why i have choose the name 104th trainees squad ^_^  . On this blog you will find a combination of just random/funny crap from various fandoms (on god) but i will also be posting stuff from me IRL. This blog doesn't really mean anything in particular, just a blog to make you laugh or smile! Some of my favorite series include: Aot, SAO, Black Butler, One Piece, FMA, Angel Beats, and more! I hope you guys enjoy this blog as much i will enjoy posting on here! 

Have a great day!

    -Alex